day 04 - a song that makes you sad
Above and Beyond - Can’t Sleep
This is the song I was talking about before that could satisfy today as well as the other three days.
I remember first hearing this at Lovefest ‘06, which I think was the first electronic music festival I’d ever been to. An internet friend was in town and he wanted to go, and it sounded like fun so I hopped along. I had no idea what I was getting into: floats with naked old guys (parade in san francisco, I should have seen it coming), the same happy hardcore measure over and over again, etc etc. Then this song came up, and I was blown away. I think this made the trip totally worth it.
In my head, this song has become an ode to all the fears I had about my first relationship. There was one particularly terrible breakdown in march ‘07 where I thought everything was going to fall apart, so I broke down and told my mom everything and just sat in my room, listening to this song over and over again. Even today, listening to this song reminds me of all that bullshit I put myself through for him.